Terror to Euphoria

The sun is shining today, and all I can think of is just how beautiful it would be to be with you; one unit entwined by the waterside. No words, no thoughts, just that nowness, that energy that spreads from soul to soul.

You can't know how terrified I am of it all - terrified of the wonderment I feel when I find you crossing my mind. So, instead of radiating the fear, I bury it within myself. I let the universe drive. I smile, I laugh, I stare into you, I absorb you. I let the initial shock dissipate into euphoria, and find myself warmer than I have been in quite some time.

I don't mean to startle you, nor do I mean to send you running in the opposite direction, as far from me as you can possibly get. I could never want that for one moment that I breathe on this Earth. My only hope is that you will feel the same, that this magnetism is not unipolar.

So, now, I've opened up the same familiar wound that always stings so much. It is here for you to either sutcher or to re-infect. The choice is up to you. But here will I sit and let the universe drive. Here, I will shiver with terror from the mere thought of what will run through your mind upon reading these things I say. Here, I will smile, I will laugh, I will stare into you, I will absorb you. I will let the initial shock dissipate into euphoria and treasure the very moment when again I see your face - when I feel warmer than I have in quite some time.